For Seun Odukoya; Not all Superheroes Wear Capes

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I have written about you so many times. I have spoken about you till I’m blue in the face. Anyone who knows me has had their ears filled with my tales of your awesomeness. But somehow, all these don’t even feel enough. How do I thank you enough for all that you do? How do I let you know just how much I appreciate you? How do I express gratitude for your unwavering loyalty and your consistent love?

Dearest Seun Odukoya, I have been privileged to have so many rainbows colour my life and you are one of the distinct ones. In the last 4 years, we have gone from Twitter followers to _______ friends, to boss and PA and now to an extension of each other. You are a part of me. It doesn’t feel like you’re another person. It just feels like you are an extended part of me.

There was a season in my life in that was fraught with lows and blues and most days were a struggle. But like the cape-less hero that you are, you showed up every single time, sharing love, light and bringing pure delight to my heart. I remember a particular day I went offline for a great many hours without any notice. After calling my phone unsuccessfully through the night, you left your home at 5am to try and find my house in Surulere, even though you’d only been there once with me at night. I’ll never forget that act of kindness. Ever. You earned the title of my real MVP then J

You’ve never let me feel like I a bother. Even in times where 9 out of 10 of my phone calls to you were to whine or rant or just be a baby, you remained rock solid and never let me feel small for being vulnerable. I am super, super thankful for you and I can never say this enough. You are one reason why I feel like I can do anything. Because I have seen you defy life and its attendant madness to chase your dreams. You have set your own manual and you live on your own terms and it is so lovely to see you set goals for yourself and pursue them relentlessly, even when it gets hard. I am so darn proud of you. Have I never told you before? Well, I am SO DARN PROUD OF YOU!!

You’re one of 2 men in my life, not related to me by blood that I would take a bullet for in the blink of an eye, without as much as a second thought. You have earned that spot with your kindness and your love. You go hard for me. From encouraging me to face my fears to holding my hands when I’m down to cheering me on in my victories… You my precious are one of the most amazing gifts I have received in my lifetime.

Thank you for doing life with me, thank you for the access you have given me, thank you for being a part of me and thank you for redefining friendship on a pure, wholesome level. I tell you all the time, they don’t make them like you no more. And that’s okay. One Seun Odukoya is enough to last me an entire lifetime. Because of you, I have learned to value every single one of my relationships on their own merit. I have learned that dreams are valid and that last last, even if things don’t work out as I want, I can always count on you to share a cocktail with me and laugh at pain or failure in the face.

I love you Seun. I am thankful for you. You’re a total rockstar. You’re my Superhero. And it’s a privilege to build greatness with you.

Cheers to the New Year. Kick ass!

Oge.

Oceans Apart (5) by Milli


‘Osas my baby gir!!!!!….how are you now?”

“Baby girl ko….baby girl ni abegi..please no dey talk that kin thing”

“Ah ah why you just harsh like this na”

“Bimbo I don’t have time….I have somewhere to be at four.”

“Okay….Okay lets go inside”

Bimbo had not let Osas rest for the last few weeks because of Behi. He couldn’t even explain why he wanted Behi back so much but he was determined to have her back at his side and…in his bed of course. Osas had been blowing him off whenever he told her he wanted to meet and talk with her about the whole thing. She finally gave up after a lot of persuasion. Bimbo was Osas’s good friend but she knew she could never let him get close to Behi again and was determined to make that not happen.

“I want her back….” Bimbo said after they had settled into their seats and ordered for their meal.

Osas laughed….a high pitched mocking laughter

Bimbo frowned “Osas I’m serious”

“My dear…” Osas said, putting a hand on his shoulder and looking straight into to his eyes “Forget about it…she would never come back to you”

“How do you know?”

“You cheated on her three times….if someone does that to you shey you would go back to the person…?”

They talked for quite a while with Bimbo admitting that he really messed up and how he had not met anyone else better than her. Osas still stood on her words saying Behi would never take him back chipping how she had begged so much on his behalf whenever he messed up.

“I was really silly then Osas….I don’t know why I was doing that….but I’ve changed…honestly.. I really want a serious relationship now.

“Eheen so then you didn’t want a serious relationship right…you knew she was fragile and you hurt her over and over again…see eh Bimbo find yourself another girl…not Behi…she has a new boyfriend now and they are both very serious about their relationship…..infact…”

“Tell me about him”……Bimbo cut Osas off

“About who?”

“Her boyfriend”

“You don’t need to know anything about him Bimbo’

‘Osas come on….just a little bit…I mean it’s not like I would send guys to beat him or something”

“That’s not even possible…he’s not in the country.”

On hearing that, a little smile formed across Bimbo’s lips.

“Oh really….so when does he get back”

Osas had seen the smile and thought it was rather suspicious and snapped back

“That’s none of your business”

“Hmmm you want to protect your friend abi”

“Bimbo see, I have told you forget about her”

“Osas you know it’s better you just tell me….you know if I wanted to know who she was with I would have found out a long time ago.”

“Eh….then go and find out yourself.”

“Clearly this is not how I expected this meeting to go”

“Bimbo stay away from her….I know we are friends but I’m sorry….I can’t help you with this one”

“I’ve heard you dearest”…..Bimbo said with a sly smile on his face

Osas said “hmmmm well thanks for the meal….I’m leaving”

“Bye bye dear”

“Bye”

Osas left while Bimbo sat there pondering about the mystery guy who was dating his Behi. He was quite cross that Osas didn’t say anything that could help him. He should have known Osas was too smart to reveal anything that would help him get Behi back but he was determined to get her back…the urge was growing…he wanted to hold her…he wanted to kiss her….he wanted her at his side and he wasn’t going to let anything stop him.

Osas knew immediately that she had to warn Behi about Bimbo. As calm and sweet as she was Behi had a little atom of stubbornness and mischief which usually went overboard when she didn’t handle the situation properly. However she had to deliver some files for her boss to someone at four. She quickly made a call to Behi

“Behi wassup?”

“I am fine dear…u?”

“I am okay…are you closing early today?”

“I am not sure o…heard there is going to be a meeting at 4.30….but at most I should be done by 6. You want to hang out somewhere after?”

“Yes….I need to discuss something with you in person”

“Hmmm okay….where and when do we meet?”

“Bukka Hut”

“Alright would let you know when I am on my way”

“Okay….bye”

My Bucket List of 25


Hi guyssssssss!!

Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Well, mine was great. I woke up this morning and my blog was 5. It’s amazing. Can’t believe I’ve been doing this for 5 years already. Anyways, to ‘celebrate’ it, I decided to share this bucket list with you guys, written earlier in the year. I know I haven’t been consistent here *face palm* but I’m working on it, I promise.

In the meantime, I hope you’re enjoying Milli’s Oceans Apart. Many thanks to the people who have been supporting her with their shares and comments. You guys are rockstars! Writing really isn’t easy so every form of feedback is a major encouragement.

So here’s my list of 25. Good luck to me achieving them. I have already crossed a few off anyways so I’m quite positive. I’ll keep updating it as I go along.

  1. Visit 30 countries before I turn 30
  2. Have a weekend getaway to some island where I will wear a straw hat and sip on mojitos and play in the sand by day then write soppy love stories by night. (Okay, maybe not soppy love stories. But sha write)
  3. Publish a novel. (One to start with at least. Lol!)
  4. Ride behind someone on a power bike (My heart won’t let me be the rider biko.)
  5. Work with some of the leading filmmakers in Nigeria.
  6. Own a filmmaking company.
  7. Visit Rome! DONE!! And it was sooooo beautiful!
  8. Visit the Egyptian pyramids
  9. Visit Brazil
  10. Learn to speak fluent French (something more than oui oui, vous vous)
  11. See Tye Tribbett live in concert
  12. See Yanni live in concert
  13. Read the Bible completely from Genesis to Revelation. (Can’t believe I haven’t done this yet. *Facepalm*)
  14. Learn to play the acoustic guitar.
  15. Climb a mountain
  16. Fly in a private jet.
  17. Go on a boat cruise. (Sorta kinda done. I had dinner on a boat cruise for my birthday. I think that counts, no?)
  18. Work with an international organization preferably in the field of dispute resolution.
  19. Go sky diving
  20. Learn a martial art.
  21. Learn to make afang soup (those who know, know).
  22. Learn to swim. (Right now, I can only move in water small. Lol. I’d love to learn to actually swim.)
  23. Feature in a movie. Not any serious acting. Just show face and give my Macleans advert smile.
  24. Give a Ted Talk.
  25. Visit all the African countries.

So that’s me done.

Many thanks to everyone who has been here through the journey. It has been super exciting for me but only possible because of you guys who read, share, comment or even do waka pass. Y’all are the real MVPs! Thank youuuuuuuu

And because I’ve got itchy fingers this morning that might probably last a few days, I’d ask this. If you guys have any themes or ideas for a story you’d like me to write. Whether short story or series, please share in the comment section and your wish will be my command. Have a super Monday!

Loads of love and light!

@Oge_writes

Oceans Apart (4) by Milli

“Erm  child of God….are you not going to church” Behi asked Osas who was still lazing on the bed.

“Hmmm yea yea I’m going”

“Get up and dress up na…do u want us to go late?” Behi said hastily

“Ok I will dress up now”

The service was nice and they both enjoyed it. Usually after service Behi wuld have gone to meet up with Dozie for lunch but that definitely wasn’t happening this Sunday and many more Sundays to come. As usual Osas had a solution.

“Dozie isn’t around o sisteh so whats the plan?” she knew Behi would probably just want to go home and she was right .

“Dunno…might just go home.”

“I’m not going home o….ah ah go home and do what now…what if there is no light?…..there is one fashion show at Terrakulture and I have two tickets are you interested?”

“Osas….. Osas you are always ready to go for one event or the other….sure I am interested” Behi said with a small smile.

“Yay!!!! But I’m hungry sha lets go eat somewhere and chill first”

“Okay lets go I know a place nearby”

“Huh you ke…you know a nice restaurant around”

“Yes na….ah ah what do u mean”

“Hmmm….Dozie has made a good impact on you…” she suddenly stopped… Uh oh shouldn’t have said his name she thought to herself.

In a few seconds Behi’s face fell  “I wonder what he’s up to now”

“Sweetie I’m sure he is fine. Shey he’s staying with Emeka…they would probably be bonding by now.”

“Yea… it’s been ages they last saw each other…..Lets go eat…it’s a lovely day don’t wanna be sad.”

With that Osas led her friend to the car.

***

Phone rings…….

Bimbo opened one eye and then the other as he tried to sit up but when he did he realized he had a splitting headache. Last night turned out to be quite eventful. His phone kept on ringing and it seemed to increase his headache the more. He picked up the call without looking at the number and answered.

“Hello”

“Guy!!!!! Nawa o I’ve been calling you since.” It was Eno

“Abeg no vex….I just dey wake up”

“Oh I see…how your party dey last night”

“It rocked infact guy the headache wey I get now as I dey talk to you eh”

“Choi….chairman I trust you…I don dey London now o just say make I hail you I never really settle”

If there was one other thing Bimbo remembered the night before it was that he had seen Behi.

“Okay….hope the cold no dey too much”

“My guy it is o….the cold is serious”

“Eyah…sori…eheen guess who I saw yesterday before I got home for the party”

“Who did you see?”

“Behi”

“Wait which Behi?” He didn’t want to believe it was his ex/ Dozies girlfriend he was referring to

“My ex nah…?”

Eno didn’t know what to say…a couple of hours ago he was with Behi’s boyfriend on the same plane and now Bimbo is telling him he saw her yesterday.

“Guy you still dey there”

“Yes I am…sorry”

“Meen I really regret what I did to her o….she was close to perfect”

“Er guy…I go buzz you on bb when I settle eh….take care”

“Hmmm…ok o no problem….bye”

“Bye”

Eno sat down looking into space. He was slowly becoming the middle man. Should he tell both parties? He met Bimbo in the university right from his first year and a close friendship formed between them. He and Dozie were good friends in secondary school and had just reconnected. He had said a whole lot about Behi during the flight chipping in from time to time how if her ex hadn’t messed up he wouldn’t have had his chance. He decided to keep the whole thing to himself. No need revealing anything for now.

***

“Meeen babes this meal is delish….” Osas said

“I was surprised you didn’t say you were watching your weight” Behi joked. She was really happy Osas was around she would have probably gone back home and cried her eyes out if she wasn’t.

“Abeg free that thing jare…we should be leaving soon though”.

They left after a while to Terrakulture. The place was beautifully arranged with lots of statement jewelries and pieces. Definitely the kind of place Osas liked to be in. less than ten minutes after they arrived, she already saw like a hundred things she wanted to buy. Behi was simpler than Osas in terms of fashion but was a pro in matching colors. She saw a couple of things she liked too. As they settled in their seats Osas phone rang it was Bimbo.

“Hey darl….wassup”

“I’m good…u”

“Well I’m trying to be ok

“Are you sick or something

“No….last night’s iranu”

“Oh….yea that’s true…you must always…..”

“How is she?” Bimbo cut her off before she could finish her statement

“Who?”

“You know na”

“She’s fine”

“Is she with you?”

“Why are you asking”

“Nothing just want to know”

“Yes”

“Wanna talk to her”

“No you can’t…you know she doesn’t want to talk to you……”

Behi didn’t need anybody to tell her who Osas was talking to on the phone she sighed heavily. All of a suddenly she felt Dozies absence again. She didn’t know if she should try calling him or not. Well there was no harm in trying.  She walked away from Osas and quickly fished out her phone and called the number he had called her with earlier. It rang a couple of times before he answered.

“Sweetie” she cooed

“My baby, how are you?”

“I’m fine…you?”

“Please cut the call and let me call you back don’t want you to waste your credit”

“Baby it’s fine”

“Nah I insist”

She cut the call and he called back instantly. Gosh Dozie always had to show he was the man

They talked for a while before they hung up. As she hung up the phone and walked back to where Osas was, she said to her

“Babe Bimbo said he wants to see you”

“For what?” Behi said with a scowl

“I don’t know o”

“Abeg he should just leave me alone”

“Hmmm he sounded sober on the phone sha…maybe he’s come back to senses”

“It’s now he’s coming back to his senses….please I’m with Dozie now”

“Maybe you should just hear him out…you know just for fun”….Osas said her eyes lighting up with mischief

“Choi you this girl…..hmmm maybe I will o for fun purposes’

“Just be careful sha…Bimbo is quite sly”

“Of cos I know”

“Think about it and let me know what you decide”

“Okay”

My Woman, My Amazon ❤️❤️❤️


Whenever I have to talk about my mum, there’s the problem of where to start. And once I start, there’s the problem of when to stop. But that’s only because she is such a strong, warm, amazing and inspiring person. 

The kindness and hospitality of her heart is enough to write a book on. And it is this same kindness and hospitality that I have imbibed and vowed to keep upholding till I take my final breath. 

I remember my mum always hosting guests while we grew up. My dad’s friends loved our house. Especially when they had to come to Zaria for a course. Mum would make her legendary pounded yam and Egusi or vegetable soup and then pepper soup and they would eat to their heart’s content. 

Mum’s hospitality is why I’m nearly always hosting friends 😂😂😂. It’s like a spirit. The spirit of Mrs. Nwobia’s hospitality is strong with me 😂😂😂

My mother meets you first with her heart before anything else. And a good number of my friends can testify to having met her heart even before her face. My mum gives like her life depends on it. And sometimes I don’t understand it. But then I read Eph 2:10 and it makes sense. 

Mum gives to people she hasn’t even met, just as long as there’s a legitimate need and it’s in her capacity to give. She isn’t the wealthiest person in finances but her heart, the wealth of her heart is overwhelming. 

It’s her birthday today and I can’t help but think and thank God for the endless gift that she is. For the numerous selfless sacrifices she has made, for every single time she has come through, for all the many lessons she has taught me (esp the secret to her destiny trapping stew. Lol.) 

For her amazing sense of humour that leaves me laughing each time we have a phone conversation. For her compassion, for her faith, for her hope even in the most awful situations. 

My Proverbs 31 woman. My woman, my amazon, my friend. 


Find you a mother who believes in the validity of your dreams twice as much as you do. 

Find you a mother who helps mend your broken heart by recommending and paying for your travel. 

Find you a mother who loves your friends and mothers them just as much as she does you. 

Find you a mother who will spare no expense to make your dreams come true. 

Find you a mother who does not give up on you even when you have given up on yourself. 

Find you a mother who celebrates even the tiniest of your victories like it was the birth of the messiah. 

Find you a mother who is president of your cheerleading squad. 

Find you who is constantly thinking of you and buying you big and little gifts just because. 

Find you a mother who is selfless in her love, just like Jesus. 

Find you a mother who is a perfect role model for wifehood and motherhood. 

Find you a Mummy Nwobia. 


This one is already taken. 

But because there’s love in sharing, you’re welcome to share. 

Happy Birthday Mama Mia! J’adore ❤️❤️❤️

Oceans Apart (3) by Milli


Dozie settled down on his seat in the plane and checked for the most important item he needed; earphones. No time to be staring at people on the plane. He always got lost in the movies going from one movie to another until his eyes were tired then he would sleep for the remaining part of the flight. That had always been his “plane tradition” anytime he travelled out of the country. After all the announcements and safety precautions they were finally ready for takeoff. “This is it” he thought. He was finally leaving Nigeria. He thought about Behi and wondered what she was doing. He snapped out of his thoughts when a male voice greeted him.

“Guy wassup”

“I’m alright” Dozie said trying to picture if he knew the face.

“You don’t remember me…it’s me….Eno from secondary school”

“Hey!!!!!!! guy how far na….you don change o….I no even recognize you again….”

Eno was one of his good friends from secondary school and Dozie has wondered why he had not seen him all the while he was checking in. He realized that Behi had been on his mind all that time. Fortunately for them, there was an empty seat beside Dozie so they could sit down together for the flight.

He and Eno had lost touch a while after they had left secondary school. At least for once he had company on the plane. Eno was also going for masters in the United Kingdom but he was going to Coventry and not London like Dozie was. They talked about everything from friends to family to football and finally the women in their lives. Eno was single apparently he had just broken off things with his girlfriend a while ago. Dozie told him about Behi and Eno asked him if he was ready for the whole long distance relationship thing adding that he had heard countless stories of how most relationships of the sort never lasted because of distance. Dozie confidently told him he was ready to do what he needed to and he trusted Behi dearly. Eno was curious to know who the Behi chic was that had made Dozie want to commit so much so he asked for a picture. Dozie was always a ladies man in secondary school all the girls liked him and he always played around with them. Clearly he had dropped that character. Dozie brought out his iphone and showed Eno a picture of Behi. “Pretty….” Eno told Dozie and Dozie smiled. “Hmmm dude you are in love o” Eno said to him. However there was something very familiar about her but he couldn’t just figure it out. They kept on talking for a while and then “DANG”!!!!! it struck him like a lightning bolt. Behi was his close friend’s ex-girlfriend Bimbo. He had met her couple of times when she was still with Bimbo. Bimbo used to open up to him whenever they had issues and he knew when Bimbo had cheated on her not once, not twice but thrice causing the relationship to end. She was a good girl and honestly Bimbo had never appreciated her. “Small world” he thought to himself but he didn’t know if he should tell Dozie he knew Behi. They had just seen each other and were reconnecting so he decided not to say anything.

***

Behi turned to face the owner of the voice she just heard. The person she had avoided seeing was standing right in front of her now.

“Hey Behi wassup”

“I’m fine…you”

“Well I’m great”

They talked for a while and Osas came down to check what was happening since her friend had been gone for quite some time. She was in shock when she saw Behi and Bimbo talking. She quickly went to interrupt the conversation because she knew Behi hadn’t bargained for this tonight. Bimbo tried convincing them to come for his party but Osas continuously declined.  Finally they said their goodbyes and parted ways.

Bimbo walked back to the car where some of his guys were waiting for him. Behi had really changed now from what he could remember. She looked really cute tonight even though she was just wearing a blouse with jeans. A wave of regret swept over him as he remembered how he had hurt her in the past. She was a great girlfriend but he clearly wasn’t as good as he should have been. He knew she was dating someone else now but had no idea who the person was. “Well no time to feel sad” he thought to himself he had a party to get to.

“Babe, are you alright” Osas touched Behi’s hand as she drove. Behi had been really quiet since they left Phase 1.

“I’m alright” Behi said “Just didn’t expect to see him the same day Dozie had to leave”

“I know dearie”

“Seeing him just brings back all the pain he caused me…he really did hurt me”

“Sorry dearie…don’t want you thinking about him can’t believe I actually thought about taking you to his party…don’t know what I was thinking”

“It’s okay dear” Behi smiled.

They finally got home and settled to eat their pizza and ice cream. Fashion police was on TV and shortly after they were laughing at Joan River’s insults and all that had happened that night was forgotten…. for a while.

***

The party was in full swing now at Bimbo’s place. People were dancing, eating, drinking. It had been his birthday a few days ago but it was a work day so he decided to celebrate it during the weekend. All these were going on but for some reason all he could think about was Behi. “Why am I thinking about her?” he thought to himself. After the breakup he decided to take a break before entering into another relationship one in which he was ready to be faithful and during that break he had had a couple of flings. Now he was searching for a responsible girl to be his girlfriend but had found none. He was just not meeting the right ones. He felt a bit of regret again as he remembered what he had done to Behi. She never deserved what he did to her. Gosh if only Eno was here he would have been able to cheer him up but dude was far away up in the sky on a plane to United Kingdom.

“Why are you not dancing….is it not your party” a voice said to him. It was some girl.

“Yea…I’m just observing” he said actually wondering what he meant by that.

“Come on let’s dance” she said.

“Okay” he said  as he got up to dance thoughts of Behi left his mind.

***

Dozie and Eno continued to talk about anything and everything. Luckily Eno was going to be in London for a while before he finally went to Coventry. Dozie was really happy they had run into each other. After a while they both slept off and by the time they woke up the plane was preparing to land.  When it had landed and they were getting out of the plane. The cold was something else.

“Hey!!!! Which kin cold be this na…..” Eno said.

“Guy welcome to London” Dozie said.

After they has crossed the border and gotten their luggage, Dozie immediately switched his sim card with a Lyca one he had bought from the airport to call his sweetheart. Yes he had told her he would call when he had settled down but he just couldn’t wait he needed to speak to her. Eno told him she would probably still be sleeping but he really didn’t care. He called her and yea…she was still sleeping because she hadn’t picked up on the first, second or third ring. Just as he was about to cut the phone after another couple of rings she picked up and he heard her sleepy voice.

“Dozie is that you” she said

“Yes baby I landed safely….  still at the airport but I just had to hear your voice”

“Aww baby, that’s so sweet. My sleep was interrupted but as far as it’s you I’m not annoyed”

Dozie laughed “Ok boo…I will call you later in the day okay love you”

“Love you too boo…bye”

The line went dead. “Love wan tin tin” Eno teased as Dozie dropped his phone in his bag. They both exchanged phone numbers and boarded taxis to their destinations and planned to meet up again before Eno finally left for Coventry. Dozie headed to his brothers place where he would be staying till he moved into school some days later. Well he was finally in London now with the quiet roads. The cold was also terrible.

“Dozie!!!!!! His younger brother exclaimed with so much joy. “My one and only big bro meen  I have missed you o!!!” Dozie had not seen his brother for about three years and he was sure very glad to see him. Apparently he was almost as tall as him now

“Guy where you think you dey grow to…u wan pass me abi” Dozie said jokingly

“Yes o…..how was your flight…and erm how is she….?”

“Flight was ok….she’s fine I guess…..”

Emeka knew about his brother’s girlfriend Behi and noticed the way his brother’s expression changed when he asked about her. This was not going to be easy for him.  Thinking of a way to cheer him up he said

“Guy I know say u never chop better food since you enter that plane”

Those words definitely called Dozie’s attention and he replied “Yes o…I’m starving”

“Oya I get plenty food for house” Emeka was a good cook.

“Abeg make we go chop”

Emeka warmed up some food and they both ate and talked about family, school and other things.

Dear Kess…

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Dear Kess,

I still remember your wide smile and cute pink gums. I remember your curly hair. I remember your skinny frame which was so much like mine back then. You should see me now though. I’m a size 10! My memory of your voice isn’t as strong as it was 7 years ago. But no matter how faint it becomes, I doubt I’ll ever forget it. Because that voice spoke some of the kindest words I ever heard to me. I doubt I’ll forget the sound of your laughter either. It wasn’t loud but it was infectious.

At different times each year, something brings you to memory. 2 years ago, it was a conversation with bestie and no matter how hard I tried, that conversation hurt my heart. It hurt so much that I soaked my pillow with tears later that night. She said you kept telling her you were tired and no matter how she tried to encourage you to fight, you wouldn’t stop insisting that you were tired and wanted to say goodbye. A part of me hurts that you wouldn’t fight for longer, but a part of me demands that I be reasonable because you were in pain I cannot even begin to fathom.

I remember talking to you about a certain crush who told me to go outside and play with sand. This was in SS2 I believe. And you were so kind and warm to me with your words that his own rude words soon lost their sting. You were there to listen to me rant about even the most inconsequential things. We shared an intense love for literature and the arts as a whole. And now I can’t believe you’ll never get to read my blog or watch any of my movies. Kess, I have made you proud with my writing and you aren’t even here to see.

I’m writing this today because Timehop brought back a tweet I shared 2 years ago after that conversation that night with bestie. 7 years after your departure, I still hurt that I didn’t have enough time with you. I hurt for that call to you that I kept postponing. I hurt for one final call, one last goodbye that never happened.

When we last saw 8 years ago, you teased me and said “so you went to Covenant University and forgot all of us abi?” I laughed and promised to do better, to stay in touch. 7 years later, I can’t believe how woefully I failed to keep that promise.

A few months ago, I made a promise to myself concerning someone but in the last few days, I have been breaking that promise without any deep thought to it. But this is a reminder. No more broken promises. I will do right by my heart because as much as is possible, I don’t want to hurt the way I am hurting.

Where my failed promise to you is concerned, I may hurt, but I certainly have no regrets. Because for a season of my life, I was blessed to share time and space with a truly precious gem- you. I am thankful for all that we had. I am thankful for the memories I have, no matter how faint.

I will never forget your smile, I will never forget your heart and I will never forget your essence.

Sleep well my friend.